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from_the_cornerSpent last three days reading happy/crazy slash (yeah, I'm kinda addicted and absolutely not ashamed, a gal can have a little fun, too).
Laughed myself to death, probably definetly convinced neigbours that I'm a total loon (couldn't keep it quiet and I'm not sorry) and few hours ago finally ended up crying .
For no particular reason.
Or maybe becouse of the "happy end"?
Or because Christmas are coming (again) and this inevitable MOOD, which just choke me (again) and don't I know it?
Or maybe because I'm "happily" sealing myself up in a cement bunker of my head - again, and it's getting easier?
Truth is - I'm scared shitless.
And don't know what to do.
Apart from going to shrink, which is still not an option for many reasons.
I'm ready to surrender.
Now how fucking pathetic that sounds?
And did I mention smoking 30-something cigarettes?
Gonna try get some sleep anyway. Maybe I woke up in some nice AU, where I still have at least ONE brain cell that functions properly.
And could someone, please, hug me?
Laughed myself to death, probably definetly convinced neigbours that I'm a total loon (couldn't keep it quiet and I'm not sorry) and few hours ago finally ended up crying .
For no particular reason.
Or maybe becouse of the "happy end"?
Or because Christmas are coming (again) and this inevitable MOOD, which just choke me (again) and don't I know it?
Or maybe because I'm "happily" sealing myself up in a cement bunker of my head - again, and it's getting easier?
Truth is - I'm scared shitless.
And don't know what to do.
Apart from going to shrink, which is still not an option for many reasons.
I'm ready to surrender.
Now how fucking pathetic that sounds?
And did I mention smoking 30-something cigarettes?
Gonna try get some sleep anyway. Maybe I woke up in some nice AU, where I still have at least ONE brain cell that functions properly.
And could someone, please, hug me?
Hello back!
Date: 2005-09-26 12:53 pm (UTC)Are you looking forward to Season 9 of Staragte? (Not Stargate SG-1, the team no longer exists and hasn't for a while.)
Love, AND a massive hug!
Jadwiga
Re: Hello back!
Date: 2005-09-27 08:07 pm (UTC)I've watched Avalon 1 - and had very mixed feelings. Because even if there was no real team for some time now - Jack was still there. And without him it all seem just a bit awkward. Maybe I'll get used to it, although I doubt. For me, it was always him, who kept everything together.
Re: Hello back!
Date: 2005-09-27 09:33 pm (UTC)Poland already has Season 9? Britain doesn't get it until October 18th! But I agree. At least with Jack Stargate could still be bearable (mostly) in Season 7-8, but now? No Jack no Stargate.
To me Jack and Daniel - mainly Jack - held the show and now? Nothing, so Season 9 is already not looking good. Looks more Farscape than Stargate!
Love,
Jadwiga
Re: Hello back!
Date: 2005-09-28 06:55 pm (UTC)I was a "good girl" and bought what I could on DVD but season 9 I'm (shamelessly) downloading via eMule. Otherwise I'd have to wait 'till DVD release and I'm not that patient :-)
And yeah - J&D forever and no one can replace that, so I'm not expecting much from SG-1 anymore. But I'm "testing" Atlantis at the moment and I'm pleasantly surprised.
Hugs