from_the_corner

I'm in a shitty mood again and I need a story.

A story, when Rodney is missing or hurt or whatever bad happens to him, and John looses it. Like - completely and utterly looses it.

Doesn't have to be slash. I'm equally fond of a strong-friendship gen. Oh, and with happy ending, of course (unless you want me to get worse).

I've re-read "But never the nights" but it's still not enough.

So, got any recs? I'm seriously begging here.

 

It's official. My eyes have put down their feet and said, ten hours at work, staring at computer screen, is absolutely enough. Therefore I can't read any more fics off screen.
I can only print that much and I already have some 50+ links saved.

Do you, people, have to be so prolific?? (kidding, just kidding now).

Spent last three days reading happy/crazy slash (yeah, I'm kinda addicted and absolutely not ashamed, a gal can have a little fun, too).
Laughed myself to death, probably definetly convinced neigbours that I'm a total loon (couldn't keep it quiet and I'm not sorry) and few hours ago finally ended up crying .
For no particular reason.
Or maybe becouse of the "happy end"?
Or because Christmas are coming (again) and this inevitable MOOD, which just choke me (again) and don't I know it?
Or maybe because I'm "happily" sealing myself up in a cement bunker of my head - again, and it's getting easier?
Truth is - I'm scared shitless.
And don't know what to do.
Apart from going to shrink, which is still not an option for many reasons.
I'm ready to surrender.
Now how fucking pathetic that sounds?
And did I mention smoking 30-something cigarettes?
Gonna try get some sleep anyway. Maybe I woke up in some nice AU, where I still have at least ONE brain cell that functions properly.
And could someone, please, hug me?